Fools- it's my birthday

So today is my birthday!! I've turned 20 and it's a nice feeling. There's a party being thrown in my honor this evening by some amazing friends. I'll head over there soon. I spent most of the morning/afternoon with Will. As with most of our encounters, this one contained great times and not so great ones. Reading his blog posts that talk about his new boyfriend are annoying and, unfortunately a bit depressing. Really only for reaons that I should be over, and mostly am. Our friendship is...complicated. We're both quick to get upset most of the time, but we're also pretty compatible. We could easily be great friends if our past was a little different. We got pho with Grace while the weather transitioned from a sunny disposition to a angry downpour of rain to less rain to no rain to more rain. I should be used to this by now. Im still with both Will and Grace in Will's apartment, and Beverly is here. He's being oddly pleasant but I'm sure most of us would take a chance to throw him out the window. Or perhaps place him on a windy balcony. I have been insanely stressed lately. I can't seem to catch up academically or musically to the levels I need to be and it's really troublesome. My private teacher isn't very happy with me and won't be unless I come in with a flawless performance on Monday. I'm excited to practice like, eight hours per day until then, but I wish I could do it because I want to, not because I have to. I have no idea what my summer plans are, still. All I do know is that I am going to Michigan for a month to study at Bay View. I want to visit Claire in Portland for a few weeks, and that is feasible if I can find a job there. But other than that, we'll see. I really don't want to go back to Spokane for the remainder off the summer. Especially because my friends are mostly staying here. Except for Bobbi- she's going back to Spokane, too. In closing, Stuart will not be able to make it to my party tonight. This is disappointing, but also slightly relieving. No embarrassing moments (though those can be some of the best to share), and no drunk make out sessions. These are good things. I don't think we're ready for each other, anyway. I am probably going to be alone until I die. I can kind of feel it. We'll see. But yay! Birthday! Everyone's being so nice on Facebook/IRL. Pretty sure they should all treat me like this every day. No JK. Love, Karen P.S. Got my bangs cut today! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!